Chapter 220 (I Am What I Am) I Will Make Myself My Own
Chen Wanxin woke up, touched her face, and looked at the ceiling doubtfully and two smiling faces of concern.
“Are you dead, too?” Chen Wanxin suddenly asked.
Chen Yuanxi and Gu Xi looked at each other, tears falling like rain. Chen Wanxin suddenly thought of something, and cried out, “Wang Xiang! Where is Wang Xiang?”
Chen Wanxin remembered that when she fell out, she found there was a big balcony several floors down.
She remembered someone rushing over and opening his arms.
She remembered that she had fallen heavily on the man.
She remembered that the man was Wang Xiang.
She remembered Wang Xiang’s mouth slowly bleeding.
“If… if you die… A’kai won’t survive…” After only leaving this sentence, the man stopped breathing.
“An’an, he is going to fall… I’m sorry, I’m sorry. I don’t belong to myself until this moment.”
“He… only said that… Wenxi, tell me why… I should die. Why did he…” asked Chen Wanxin repeatedly. Her viscera were also damaged, so a trace of blood flowed out of her nose when she was excited.
“Wanxin, your life belong to Zheng Kai, Wang Xiang and me. Live well.” Chen Yuanxi held her hands tightly.
“A’kai…” Hearing that, Chen Wanxin almost sat up because of excitement.
Chen Yuanxi nodded solemnly.
Zheng Kai might have heard Chen Wanxin’s monologue, so that he survived. Although he was still in the intensive care unit, maybe he would be transferred to the ordinary ward soon, and then would be discharged. In fact, whether Zheng Kai would survive depended on his own will. If he wanted to die, no one could help him. Only what Chen Wanxin said at the last moment gave him hope of life.
Chen Wanxin was so excited that she folded her hands and kept praying silently from morning to night. She murmured all day, and no one bothered her.
It wasn’t until late at night that she let out a mouthful of blood and fell asleep.
Gu Xi suddenly felt that Chen Wanxin had lost many things, and seemed to have acquired many more.
“You seem to be back in your childhood, the age of no worries.” Gu Xi gently stroked Chen Wanxin’s forehead. Her face was relaxed and pure, and there was no more violence.
Zhao Yuan did not expect himself to attend a funeral once again before the winter had gone and the snow had melted in this town. This time, he was accompanied by Shu Xiaoman, who many of classmates had not seen for more than a year.
A group of students exchanged greetings and were silent together.
The photo on the gravestone was taken when Wang Xiang took part in the team activities he organized in BC company. He just suddenly attacked Zheng Kai and ran forward, and when he looked back with a mischievous smile, he was taken a photo of. Wang Xiang’s parents wanted Zheng Kai to choose a photo of Wang Xiang. Gu Xi did not want to affect Zheng Kai, so he selected this picture for Zheng Kai. He remembered that Zheng Kai had been keeping this picture all the time and said to Gu Xi that Wang Xiang laughed as good as he used to. Gu Xi knew that Wang Xiang liked to stay with Zheng Kai, so that he was despised by Zheng Kai, just like he used to do. He knew that Wang Xiang had often pretended to tease Zheng Kai and him. He also knew that Wang Xiang had always learned basketball skill from Zheng Kai, but made little progress. He knew that Wang Xiang had always thought of the scene of Zheng Kai saving him. He also knew that there was imperceptible tears in Wang Xiang’s eyes when he fell asleep on Zheng Kai that night. But he had never seen Wang Xiang’s so bright smile.
The epitaph was chosen from Wang Xiang’s favorite song by Zhang An’an. It said, “The more one tries to hide, the more one is exposed.”
In one of his diaries, Wang Xiang expressed his feelings to all humanity.
“I know I love An’an. I can’t bear to give up her. But I found that I still love Zheng Kai. Who do I love more?”
Among the college classmates, Wang Xiang was the first one to die. He died so suddenly that he left only one sentence. That sentence, perhaps was the answer, perhaps, was not.
Zhang An’an, who was pregnant, was reluctant to make a eulogy as a relict.
“He has made his choice and I will respect him.” Zhang An’an said with a smile, but her pale face was full of tiredness.
That day, when Wang Xiang learned that Zheng Kai was in critical condition, he became crazy and wanted to leave without packing anything. At that time, Zhang An’an suddenly had a bad premonition and hurried to hold Wang Xiang’s hands.
“Xiang, I am pregnant. It’s your child. You have to remember it!”
Wang Xiang was overjoyed at that time. He kissed her again and again and asked Zhang An’an to wait for him to come back. He wanted the child as much as ever. She believed that he would do his duty as a father, when she saw the strange light in his eyes. At that moment, he completely belonged to her.
Then she waited a day and a night, and finally received Chen Yuanxi’s phone call.
She did not know if Wang Xiang had thought about this child and she when he made the decision at that moment.
Zhang An’an’s biological mother was abandoned by Mo Qian and had traveled in distant parts. After the birth of Zhang An’an, she deliberately got to know Boss Zhang working in the Mo Family. When Zhang An’an was less than five years old, her mother died of depression and anger. But she had already remembered her mother’s hatred, which came from the man named Mo Qian.
This life, she only wanted to avenge her mother. All her life, she had been using Boss Zhang and being used by him at the same time.
She learned mind-reading and hypnotism from Boss Zhang. She was very talented. Boss Zhang had told her every task of Mo Qian and everything of the Mo Family. She finally got a chance in university to know Lin Wenxi. It could be said that her goal was revenge instead of helping Lin Wenxi. However, Boss Zhang also knew little of the bloody incidents, because they were top secrets of the Mo Family. She once had regretted that why she could not find out that Zhang Dong was sent to kill Zhao Mingjiang. She also had regretted that she could not know that the Mo Family had decided to kill Lin Ziwei, but she felt that she had done her best.
But when she was in college, she knew the man in the cemetery.
He seemed to be very playful, but she knew that he was really wholehearted. He seemed to know everything, but he was not good at anything. She knew that he was born with a curious mind.
All people did not understand why she had fallen in love with such an unattractive man. Only she knew that he never did evil with others. She knew that he had always been very kind and fed stray cats in school. And she liked cats most.
She once thought that Wang Xiang hated her because of her obesity, so she went on a diet in a crazy way, and even took the initiative to join a talent show to become a star. All that she had done was for revenge. Over the years, she had insulted him in public and asked him to clean her shoes. She even had suddenly rushed down, gone straight to him and driven him out when she sang on the stage.
But when she was drunk and the agent wanted to bully her, he was the first one to jump out to protect her.
When Mo Qian and his subordinates came to find evidence, Zhang An’an was too weak to get up, but she had installed a special pinhole camera in her room. She watched Mo Qian look on coldly when she was repeatedly insulted by his subordinates, but she did not tell him her identity. Instead, she felt a sense of revenge.
The photos were all spread on the Internet by her, and the rumors were also made up by her.
She just wanted to keep him around a little longer. She preferred to be fed a mouthful of hot porridge by him rather than be a star. She preferred to stoop to accommodate herself to him, because she wanted to hear him sing after the end of the matter. In fact, he was more roguish than Zhao Yuan, so that he said he wanted free.
But she did not understand why there was no fate between him and her, why he did not say he loved her even though he had accompanied her to many cities, why he only stayed in a small town, rented a small house near BC company, and worked as a busy marketing staff though he had kept up with her.
Zhang An’an felt tired.
These months were the happiest days she had ever had in her life.
In the past, she did not know it.
It turned that he did not know, either. He only knew that he had fallen in love with both, and then he both loved.