For the first time that I felt flurried and my mind was in a mess.

Although I didn’t have Yun Muxi’s telephone number, I had sent her home the first time we met. Thinking of this, I no longer felt upset as I did the last few days but excited.

As time went by, it had been more than one year since I was acquainted with Yun Muxi. She was like a friend who had similar ideals and beliefs with me, and we always had common topics and cooperated very well in academic discussions. However, except these, we had nothing else to go beyond.

This winter vacation, we were going to celebrate my grandfather’s eightieth birthday in America.

Everything seemed as usual. One day, Wu Haipeng sent me a message on Wechat wishing me a happy new year, and we thus had a small chat. I knew that he was going to take the admission test of University X and would leave S City if he was admitted.

His words sent a blow to my mind that I realized I had ignored a problem all along.

The following day, I couldn’t help but use some means to get to know that Yun Muxi wanted to apply for University Z in A City. At that time, University Z was one of the most famous universities across the country. What’s more, I believed that Yun Muxi was capable of entering this university.

But now, I had to confront that Yun Muxi would leave here soon. She would be gone for a long time, and the distance between us would become farther and farther. As if there were grasses growing in my heart, I was restless.

I was very excited when the day of going home was finally coming. At that time, my mood made my grandpa feel jealous. He thought I began to dislike him because I grew up.

The day before going home, I accompanied my sister to buy gifts. At that moment, I was somewhat absent-minded and immersed in the enjoyment of going home.

But suddenly, a white bear in a shop window caught my attention.

It was a white teddy bear with patches on its forehead. Yun Muxi once told me a story of the patched bear. From her expression of that time, I knew she would like this bear very much.

The bear was a limited edition designed for Valentine’s Day. There were only 99 such bears around the world and each bear had a different tag. Because the bear I saw was the last one in this shop, I bought it without hesitation.

Through the bear, I also realized I had a shortcoming, that was I was so cowardly.

I kept the bear for half a year as I neither knew how to give the bear to her nor I knew the real thoughts in my heart.

It was not until Yun Muxi took the college entrance examination that I had the courage to face my inner feelings.

That day, Wu Haipeng told me that they were going to have a class dinner. So I waited for them at the gate of the hotel early.

It was also that day that I saw the “real” Yun Muxi for the first time. The reason why I said so was that she showed herself as she was.

I always thought that Yun Muxi was a unique girl who was smart, had a good character and studied well, and I also had a vague feeling that this girl was not as simple as she looked like because at least, she was delicate and pretty.

However, that day, I found her even more stunning than I had thought.

Not wearing her black-framed glasses but dressing up simply, she really stunned me, and my heart jumped for her for a long time.

However, to my surprise, after this day, she thoroughly disappeared from my sight and even my life. I inquired about the news of her desperately, but I got nothing.

It seemed as if she had disappeared from the world. I even found her good friend Gu Yuxuan for her news, but she hesitated and just told me that Yun Muxi had moved to a distant relative of hers.

I made up my mind to enter University Z so that I could stay with her in one year.

Eventually, I was admitted into University Z successfully. My heart was full of joy because I could stay with her again. But what made me more surprised was that Yun Muxi and Gu Yuxuan took a year off and were freshmen this year just like me.

Upon hearing the news, I felt so excited that I stayed up all night.

But soon, a piece of grievous news that Yun Muxi was pregnant broke all my fantasies.

Only Gu Yuxuan and I knew this news, but we didn’t know who was the child’s father, let alone knowing where she had gone this year and what had happened to her.

Yun Muxi had left a good impression on me, thus, even after this unexpected thing happened, my impression of her remained unchanged. I firmly believed that she was not a bad girl. Furthermore, I even felt she was pathetic and hid something in her heart.

Gu Yuxuan and I kept the secret for her, and we went through the semester to winter vacation smoothly, and no one found that she was pregnant.

I wondered if God meant to have her suffer so much. She gave birth to a premature baby, and it almost caused her a hemorrhage.

Finally, she went through the hair-raising misfortune and gave birth to a lovely daughter. Then Xuanxuan and I adopted her as our goddaughter. I was very glad to be Niannian’s godfather because the relationship between Yun Muxi and me became closer through this.

However, the joy barely lasted for two days when the suffering came again.

Yun Muxi’s father died in Africa as one of the Doctors Without Borders. When we heard the news, Yun Muxi had just left the hospital and went home with the baby, Niannian.

At that time, Yun Muxi seemed in the suffering of postnatal depression. She was immersed in sadness all day. Although Gu Yuxuan and I accompanied her all the time, it seemed that she still could not open her heart to us and there was a place in her heart that we could never reach.

One day, I plucked up my courage and told her that I’d like to share all the sufferings in her life and I wanted to be Niannian’s father genuinely as well as that I didn’t care whether she was my child or not.

Perhaps I was somewhat contemptible to take advantage of her misfortune, but I thought I could be someone in her need only when she was depressed like this, and I had to seize this chance of a lifetime.

Unexpectedly, I still failed. Even though I used some means, I failed as well.

It made me realize that there was a person that I could not replace in her heart all the time, so, she would not accept anyone else.

I began to envy that person, and this was the first time I had envied someone since I was born. I grew up in a rich and loving family, surrounded by too many halos, so, I thought I was superior to others, but I lost in the end to the man in her heart.

When I was about to graduate from college, I started to manage the family-owned group. This was the way destined for me.

To my surprise, Yun Muxi became a screenwriter of a film, for the film was adapted from a novel she wrote during her college years. But what’s more surprising was that she unexpectedly became the leading actress of that movie.

The reason was said to be that she knew more about the psychology and character of the female role. I believed it was true. She was so outstanding that even if she wanted to hide her advantages, she would be shining for her talent wherever she went.

So I believed that she would be remarkable as usual this time.

I went to see her in the crew one day and I somehow became the focus there, but this was not what I wanted. I just wanted to see her. I was on business lately, so, I got fewer chances to see her.

That day, I met a man named Gong Yu, of whom I was jealous so badly.

It was not until a long time had passed that I found this man the one in her heart.

In fact, I always knew that Yun Muxi was a shining woman, but she hid her charm all the time so that many people did not find her gorgeous side. I was so lucky to have entered her life and become the man who really understood and appreciated her.

Later on, except for Gong Yu, a strong rival in love of mine, another man named Lu Yang pursued her.

Actually, I didn’t worry about Lu Yang, but Gong Yu …

Surprisingly, Yun Muxi seemed to dislike Gongyu, or one could say she avoided him intentionally. This finding surprised me. I even felt a chance came to me.

I finally expressed my true feelings to her again. In fact, I didn’t know how many times I had confessed to her over the years, but I thought this time might be my last chance.

The words that Niannian said made me upset. Her words “… a wild child without father…” were still fresh in my memory all the time.

I didn’t know how hurt Niannian felt when other children bullied her by saying she was a wild child. I mustered my courage to give Niannian and Yun Muxi a family.

However, I didn’t go into her heart and failed again.

Later, I thought God finally knew the true feelings in my heart and gave me a chance again. I had a car accident and took the chance to pretend to lose my memory.

As expected, the kind-hearted Yun Muxi was very cooperative about my plan. At that time, I thought I had succeeded. I immediately tried my best to make her fall in love with me.

My sister said I was selfish, but I could not care about too much. I felt that Gong Yu was my biggest threat. I never thought that I would be so unscrupulous in order to achieve my aim. I even cursed myself in secret for being mean and disgraceful.

Nevertheless, at the thought that Yun Muxi might fall in love with me, I considered everything I had done worthwhile. Even though I used many means, I lost to Gong Yu in the end.

Maybe it just took a single thought to give up one’s persistence.

In Sanya, I came across Yun Muxi, and her family of three. Although I was unwilling to mention it, it was the truth.

Comfortingly, I was not the only one in disappointment. In the meantime, I met a girl named Jiang Xiaonuan. She loved Gong Yu as much as I loved Yun Muxi, and we comforted each other in the end.

On that day, we had a drink together and told each other the true feelings hidden in our hearts. The people she and I fell in love with were a couple. Fate played a big joke on us.

We were drunk that night and did something we shouldn’t.

But today, I appreciate what happened that night, which brought the two of us in true love.

It did just take a single thought to give up one’s persistence. Once we let it go, we would find in surprise that there were many people around us worth our love and that the person we thought we were in love with was not our true love.

Luckily, I gave it up in time and found my true love. Fortunately, I met you.