Chapter 700: Xiao Lin’s Dream (2)
Translator: EndlessFantasy Translation Editor: EndlessFantasy Translation
Somehow, three years passed. Ever since that mysterious dream, three years passed by in a flash. In those three years, Xiao Lin no longer had any similar dreams, and he slowly started to stop talking about it. After all, he was not someone who tended to daydream.
His job was not bad, and his position and salary was constantly increasing. Even though he was still far away from being a true white collar elite, Xiao Lin was someone who knew how to be content with what he had. According to his plans, after two years, when he had a bit more money, and with the help of his family, he planned on buying a house in the suburbs and making the down payment. Then, he would be like most of the homeowners in the country, paying for the mortgage every month.
Even though it was not what Xiao Lin truly wanted, it was still the regular life of a regular person. In recent years, his family had set up a lot of blind dates for him, but it never lasted that long. It was not that Xiao Lin wanted better, or that the women did not like him. His excuse to his family was that he was still young, and he still wanted to focus on his career.
However, Xiao Lin never told anyone the real reason. In his consciousness, he always felt like there was a shadow in his heart. There was a very, very vague figure, and he did not know who it was or how he knew them, and he even already forgot the general shape.
However, Xiao Lin could never forget that blurred image. He felt that he would regret it his entire life if he did not wait for that person. Yet, the relatives in his family were pressuring him, and he knew he was getting older and would need to find a woman to spend the rest of his life with eventually.
Xiao Lin started to feel like he was at a loss. His life continued, and he went to work every day, gaming at night and drinking with friends during the weekends. His life was as uneventful as usual, but for some reason, he was starting to feel frustrated.
Xiao Lin started to hesitate. He told himself that he just had to completely forget that figure in his mind, and his life would be back to normal. However, he could never muster up the determination to do that. It was like he was cutting up his own flesh, and he could not bear to do it, even though he did not know the reason why.
‘What am I hesitating for?
‘What am I so frustrated about?
‘Why do I feel like something is missing from my life?’
Xiao Lin’s temper started to get a little bad. He knew that it was not good for him, and he even thought about looking for a therapist for the issue. His friends consoled him as well, and encouraged him to take a long vacation. They felt that Xiao Lin was just letting his work stress get to him.
Xiao Lin felt like that might be the case. In truth, he regularly had some strange feelings when he was younger, getting a sense of deja vu that he could never figure out the source of. When he grew up, the feeling started to lessen.
He felt like his frustrations could have originated from there, so Xiao Lin accepted his friends’ kind suggestions, asking for a long vacation from his company before going on holiday and visiting various tourist hotspots to try to improve his mood.
However, it did not achieve the desired effect. Unlike usual, without the burdens of work, his calm heart instead started to think about it even more. Thinking about even more blurred figures, blurred people, and blurred events.
Both the people and the events all had a thick sense of familiarity, but it felt extremely foreign and distant, as if it was a completely different life that had nothing to do with him. But yet, why was he so fixated on it?
Xiao Lin felt like he was going mad. He felt like he might have developed some form of schizophrenia, so he went to various hospitals and went through countless tests, all to no avail.
Half a year passed just like that, and there were still no improvements. Xiao Lin sat in a hotel alone, exhausted. He looked at the sun outside. He spent his days like that lately. He was working hard to remember, but he could not recall it. He felt like something was missing in his life, but he could not say what it was.
Then, a piece of news got his attention. A blood moon was about to happen. It was a phenomenon that only happened once every two hundred odd years. The papers and the media had already been talking about it for a few days, but Xiao Lin only suddenly noticed it then. The television in the hotel was always on, but he did not have a habit of watching it. He was just afraid of staying in a quiet environment, worried that it would cause his thoughts to wander, so he just kept it on to have more noise in the room.
Xiao Lin’s heart suddenly had a strange feeling, as if he had seen a blood moon at some point. However, he quickly shook his head and denied it because the news made it very clear that it only happened once every two hundred odd years. He had not even been born the last time it happened, so it was definitely a mistake on his part.
However, Xiao Lin still decided to look at the lunar eclipse. It might have just been to relieve some boredom, or maybe to verify his strange feeling. His luck was not bad, and the city he was in had been having very clear weather over the past few days. There was even a mountain nearby, so on the day of the lunar eclipse, he carried his bag and brought enough food and water up the mountain.
The mountain was not a famous tourist destination, and the surrounding area was not that developed, so there were not that many people there. He had heard before that there was an observatory on the top of the mountain, but it was never opened to the public.
Xiao Lin tried to head over to the observatory, but he was rejected. However, that was fine, as the lunar eclipse did not need to be seen through a telescope, and he was not that interested in astrology anyway, only doing it to relieve some boredom.
Xiao Lin found an empty space on the mountain top alone. As night fell, the large round moon hung in the sky. It was bigger than usual, and bathing in the silver light of the moon, the feeling in his heart intensified.
He had definitely seen the same moon before at some point, but he could not remember when. Xiao Lin tried very hard to remember his past, but there were no empty patches to be filled. He would have been more comfortable if it was just memory loss, but now it seemed like someone was forcibly changing his life.
The lunar eclipse finally started, and Xiao Lin’s thoughts were thrown into greater disarray. He had just been looking at the moon out of boredom, but he never expected it to make himself even more frustrated. The head splitting feeling caused him to be unable to endure it anymore, and he curled up on the floor, constantly trembling.. More and more fragmented memories started to float in his mind, but they were all bits and pieces, missing anything to tie them together, and causing him to be unable to process them.